Monday, November 25, 2013

Testify

THIS GIRL

To the Future, bring on the great unknown- I am ready to embrace it. I'm going to shed my old skin & make a change. Time to bring positivity back, and some bada$$ Fashion. Time to live life not dwell. Let's stop trying to change the things out of our control and concentrate on the things we can change. I'm starting with me.. choosing to be surrounded by positive energy and the people I love!!! Yes this includes me dancing and bowling at the same time in a dress in public! Hey at least I am being me! Come on Girl's you know the rules never dress down. Always dress up!










FASHION

Must say the top of everyone's wish list is the color Emerald. If your a guy or girl grab it up fast because it's super hot this season. Next season you will see it everywhere!!! I doesn't have to be a dress or a coat. Grab a great medallion, set of earrings, some swanky shoes. Show the Wizard of OZ who's the fashion boss! 





PAIN

Today and forever I choose to change for the better. I am letting go of all the negative energy around me. Toxic people this includes you. To the toxic's,  don't you have better things to do than cause drama? Maybe forgive, move on, give something to someone else ...just to be nice? Try helping others instead? It is so much more rewarding. Everyone needs help. Even the person you think has it all. Often I find when I am actually helping others I am healing and helping myself.  


This is a hard topic. I am over people that are stuck on themselves. I use to be one of those toxic types & it's an absolutely miserable life. I will never go back to it. Being toxic basically means the world revolves around you, and you do whatever you want, say whatever you want, whenever you want. The saddest part is you get stuck with people just like you, and THEY don't care about you at all. Because they are completely self absorbed. And there is always another person they can latch on to besides you. These type of people won't be there to catch you when you fall. People who don't show grace, love, forgiveness, and kindness are the people I am talking about. I still think there is good in these people, who know's they might turn out to be outstanding individuals in the end. Who am I to judge? I just know that if their current actions are affecting you negatively they harmful to you, it's like eating a poisonous apple. When people are toxic chose not to trust or believe them. In my experience, I feel like all they want to do is simply use you, or put you down. My advice is don't gossip behind your friends back, if your hear or believe something disturbing from someone else about your friend confront them about it. DON'T BELIEVE everything you hear or read. People intentionally instigate drama to ruin people's friendships daily. Especially if there is no evidence, don't believe everything you hear or read. It's call friendship code. Call your friend and talk it out!  Wow! 

 The grace of God has shown me a better way, ironically by living in harsh conditions and through though times. I choose and collect my friends by their actions. I think everyone gets a couple chances (let's be honest we all mess up, say things we don't mean, think without speaking, do careless things, especially the younger we are). But if a friend is worth fighting for then get up and FIGHT for them like a mature adults. Talk it out. Show grace, love, forgiveness, and if you get that from them in return you have found your true friends. THose are the kinds of friends that will be your family. Nevertheless, I have some pretty stellar friends, and I wouldn't trade them for gold. I know if I was in jail in Mexico they would come bail me out pronto. I would do the same for them. It's so wonderful to have friends you trust, friends that can house sit, dog sit, baby sit, have celebrations with, make memories with, do the holidays with, cry, and laugh with, to dance with, create with, inspire, and who you know will always have your back. It's time to consolidate those who matter in your life. Find out who your real friends are and why. I love my friends dearly. Shows like the Real Housewives, almost make it seem normal to only have fri-enemies. The world is getting more crazy by the minute. If your friend hurt you on purpose time to let them go. If your friend is like family, and you had a misunderstanding; I bet that neither of you truly intended on hurting one another. My motto make new friends but keep the old some are silver and the other gold. 








Something Blonde, Something New, Something Wild, Something Blue

GIRL

Time for chance. I love change. Although, many people despise it. I don't quite get that theory of thought. However, if your anything like me you probably understand where I am coming from. I wanna change how I look, my house, my car, my hair, my furniture, my interest, my lifestyle, my nails, the flowers, everything because its fun! It's like traveling the world and experiencing new things. There is so much to experience in life; it gets to mundane doing the same thing over and over again (for me anyways). Everyday is like a snow flake each day is different. I can handle a routine, but I like to think of new and exciting ways to do things instead.

My new look (FOR MY HAIR) will be inspired by the Carrie Diaries expect in 2014: Love it? Hate it? I don't care.I LOVE IT!!!





FASHION

Wedding Season. One of my most beautiful friends Stacy Mariner White, and her hubby Greg White tied the knot this weekend. They had a unforgettable romantic wedding in San Antonio, Texas. Stacy and I have know each other almost 10 years and she has becomes smarter, more caring, and more beautiful each time I see her. She looked absolutely stunning. I had to share this amazing picture of her in her fashionable wedding gown leaving the church they were married in, with Mr. White. This is the same church Stacy's parents were married in years ago! Yes there were lots of tears. BTW Stacy gave me some great advice I had never heard.  She told me the dirtier the dress the longer and the happier the marriage. What a positive outlook. I am going to share that with my children one day if I have them.





PAIN

Pain hurts but it will never take over who I really am. Dear the diseases in my body, I will not let you define me anymore. 

THANK YOU JEN FOR MAKING ME REALIZE THAT!

I did make this blog to keep people updated not feel sorry for me. So I will continue to post my health status but I don't want to concentrate on it to much. 
This week I had a 3 day gallium scan that took about 2 hours each. This test should be able to show my doctor where the white blood count is highest. Helping him decipher if I have chronic schlerosing Osteomyelitis or Supperative Osteomyelitis. The answer I am praying for it neither and it it all gone!!




Friday, November 1, 2013

A Time for Change

This Girl- 

Happy Harvest! I hope your Halloween was super fun. My husband and I dressed up minimally. He was the joker and I was a YOLO (You Only Live Once) Fairy. I am going through a lot of changes right now. Being the YOLO Fairy was perfect and funny to keep my spirits high.  Yesterday we had a long day, and today was an early morning today. Last night we kept it super low key and went to our friends house for dinner. Yesterday I found out that there is a curve ball in my osteomyelitis diagnosis. With that being said I have the urge to see my friends, do the things I love, and stay positive (even though things aren't getting better yet). I also wanted to say thank you for everyone that supported me. To anyone that used indiegogo.com to support me: I will be sending your thank your gifts off soon I promise.I think I am going to make a mood board of the things I want in my life, and things that inspire me. I will post it once I have finished. 

I am happy to announce that I was asked back to be Austin's Harper's Bazaar Style Ambassador.

Fashion- 

Luckily, I was asked to renew my Harper's Bazaar Style Ambassador contract till 2014. I am super excited about it.

I found out through Bazaar that there is a stellar sweepstakes going on for this amazing skin care line called Algenist. This contest is an awesome oppertunity because anyone who qualifies can enter. The grand prize winner will receive $1,000 cash, along with $1,500 worth of Algenist products.The first 3 winners will each receive $1,000 worth of Algenist products. Just apply before December 31, 2013.
Pain-

For a couple weeks I was feeling so much better. I thought I might be cured. Unfortunately, I started swelling and getting rashes about 8 days ago. I have already seen 3 doctors this week. I have 2 weeks of testing coming up before I get any answers. I was informed that the most diagnosis might be wrong. Either way I have osteomyelitis of the mandible. They are still considering chronic sclerosing osteomyelitis, which basically means that the bone that is infected and starts to grow rapidly, hard, and thick. Very nasty for this one they must remove your jaw. If this is the case I have at least 2 more surgeries. After the doctors reviewed my post op from July, they have reason to believe I have what is called chronic suppurative osteomyelitis. This means that infectious liquids grow between in my mandible bone. If that is the case 2 more surgeries and a month of hyperbaric chamber treatment. Either way I will most likely will have to have another picc line (which I can't stand). I also have an autoimmune disease which makes it harder for me to recover that the doctors are concerned about.

This is not only painful to hear, but it puts my dreams and business on hold. 

I thought that my blog wasn't reaching the people I intended to, so I thought about taking it offline. The biggest intent I have for my blog is to reach those who have similar issues and who want more information. These types of infections are so rare, and there is not much information out there. At first I wasn't helping anyone. I am glad that I have continued to write and keep my blog up because I am starting to reach people that I can help! They are e-mailing me and reaching me through the blog!

Picture below is of a hyperbaric chamber. There are several kinds but this is one of the newest in town. If I have suppurative osteo then will have to stay in one for about 2 hours 5 days a week.