Self Healing Weekend

About This Girl:

This weekend was really interesting and relaxing. I went into the unknown frontier (for me anyways) of self healing. My mother and I went to the Austin Sufi center together where we met my Tracy Ward and Pamela who taught a 2 day session on how to make ourselves feel better on the inside and out naturally. My friend Ana Reign first introduced me to this (I will right more about here on another blog). As skeptical as I am to self healing, I found the weekend to be great. I was around a lot of people that are sick or injured that I could relate too. I was probably the youngest person in the room but I have found that did not matter at all. I made some great friends there that I was drawn to instantly. People that I felt an instant connection with, and that offered their advice and help to me. I will keep these people in my heart, and in my thought's and prayers. Anyways, the weekend was really "Groovy". We ate all organic food, drew pictures, learned from each other, talked about different thing's that helped us heal, we did meditations, we rested, we worked on our chakra's and synergy, and we did self energizing exercises. This was all new to me. I woke up at 7:00 each morning and came home around 6:00 each night. I was tired, well fed, and my spirit felt lifted. All great things. I realized that not everyone would learn from these teachings, and that not every teaching I would adopt into my own lifestyle. I did know God had me there for a reason. I have been so uptight with this surgery deadline coming up, so scared, so fearful. The biggest thing I realized is that most of the people around me had already Let Go And Let God. This is something I just haven't been able to do yet. After spending this weekend with my new beloved friends I realized that I can Let Go And Let God, I just have to take the leap. I am still trying. I have given everything over to him but I still have anxiety, insomnia, and pain. Christina, one of my best friends, told me that God only chooses the strong people to carry the load, and when it's over I will be able to give back to others going through a similar journey. I hope that if you are going through something similar that you have great friends, and love around you like I do. I hope that you believe that there is a better way, and a better day coming.

Fashion:

For a trip into a place of relaxation, like where I was, or somewhere like a spa. I have a great boutique to suggest to get clothing it's called Blends! Blends is this wonderful women's boutique and cute antique furniture. It is owned by this wonderful lady with a great spirit named Diane. She actually had one of my gowns in her shop recently. The dress ended up on the cover of Blend's flyers. Her shop is so unique, it isn't really the place for gown's. But we decided that one of my gown's would look great for the ambiance of her store. Ironically, it was the only gown in the store and it quickly sold to a girl who needed a prom dress. Anyway's most of her clothing is very unique, casual, shabby chic. I love it. It is great for someone that wants to wear clothing that they feel beautiful in without having to be "all did up". For example, I have a pair of pants from their that are black and I could wear them to bed or an office meeting they are seriously fantastic. So it can be causal or nice and dressy. She has the perfect clothes to wear when traveling, or while on vacation. I love this place and the family that owns it. They have a very special place in my heart here is her FB page https://www.facebook.com/pages/Blends-Georgetown-TX/190187017663999.

Pain: 

Well as far as pain goes, I am still in a ton of it. I still have to take medications, and I hate it. But I found that eating certain healthy foods help me feel better in general. For instance, kale is a great food that does so much for your body. I wasn't really turned onto it until, I had it mixed with dried cranberries and walnuts. This mixture tastes great together. I am a big fruit lover, and that is a good thing. If you are sick like me it's really important to make sure that your plate has a lot of color on it. You don't want everything like the color of bread because you will gain a bunch of unwanted weight, and you will feel psychically and emotionally horrible. I also learned how to say good affirmations to myself self. It really helps me if I do this while I am in deep meditation or prayer. I also have a problem with sleeping. I am taking medication for this but I still don't sleep every night. I have become an insomniac at times. However, I learned a natural mineral you can take is magnesium to help you sleep at night. I would love to hear for you on anything that helps you feel better, or that helps you sleep! Please anyone out there that needs someone to relate to contact me. I would love to talk to you and help you through your journey.

Make New Friends but Keep the Old

About a Girl:
Today I was pretty tough. My mom and I worked on putting the new apartment together. There is still a lot to do. I am trying to go through everything that I don't use or need. I hate clutter. The best part of the day was spending it with my mom, and looking through old memory books. My mom brought me files from since I was in grade school through college. It warmed my heart to see my best friends through the years.
 My best friends in elementary Jaime, Laura, and Christina. To Middle School my best friends were Crystal, Robin, and Alyssa. To High School I was BFF with Chandra, JJ, Brandy, Christina, Lizzy, and Brian. College I had lots of best friends including JJ, Monika, Christina, Brian,  Kortni, Travis, Lizzy, Stacy, & Kendra. Then as I have grown up they have all managed to stay in my life and made room for more amazing new people like Casey, Nancy Shields, Casey Marie, Mikey, Larissa Ness, Tracy Tenpenny, and Connie.
The people above have all changed my life in one way or another. Even if I didn't mention your name you made a special impact on my life too. I am shown this by the notes I have saved from middle school and high school, the notes in my years books, the comments on FB, the phone calls, and the prayers. I know I have Angels watching over me. I have so much love and appreciation for my friends. I am forgetful so if you don't see you name up there send me a note and remind me! I just wanted to create a appreciation list for my real friends not a clic' just people that I am really close too.
 My family has been the greatest support for me in this situation (including my grandparents, cousins, and siblings and Brian's side of the family.) Thank you to you all for all the good times we had, and all the love and support. I am so glad I have the memories and the pictures of a better time and place in my mind. Tomorrow my mom and I are going to a retreat on natural healing to see if it can help me heal. I will try anything and she is always there to take me or be on the way.

Fashion:
A good tip for fashion if you buy something new, let's say in this case it's a new day dress. Give away or sale 2 dresses that you have not worn for at least a year. This will keep your closet clean. As going through most of my stuff I will tell you a little stylist secret. Never through away accessories. Keep jewelry, belts, hats, purses, bags, umbrellas, coats, and shoes. Even though they might not be in style now they will always come back around.

Pain:
Tomorrow my mom and I are going to a retreat on natural healing to see if it can help me heal. I will try anything and she is always there to take me or be on the way. I will let you know how it goes and what I  will be doing exactly. I hope and pray that it will at the very least take away my fear, and anxiety. I also would absolutely love a Miracle but God that's up to you.

If you can please help donate to my cause. You can use http://www.youcaring.com/medical-fundraiser/help-rachelle-battle-chronic-sclerosing-osteomyelitis/58786 or if you would like to mail me a donation just ask e-mail me for my new address.

P.S. I am pretty sure we are having a Wishing Well Party in July on a Saturday. It will  be a formal/semi formal with the color theme of Blue. If my friends still have time to put this together please leave any information at the bottom for ideas or if you want to help. I just really want to see all my friends before I leave. I miss all of you even the ones I did't mention : ( you better come too because I love you as well. I just want another glance at how wonderful my life use to be and how fun it would be for one night to pretend I was AWESOME like before.

XoXOXO

Moving In

Thank you for becoming an active part of my blog I really appreciate it. 

ABOUT A GIRL:

Today the girls came over and helped me clean and decorate out our new apartment. My mom, sister, and niece were my earth Angels. Unfortunately today, I was sick in bed with a swollen jaw & pain all the way up to my ear. I did help some with the direction I wanted our living space to be very clean and uncluttered. However, I have to give a big shout out to my family and all their hard work today and all week. Also to Brian and his family for all the hard work and support in moving.
Before I have surgery July 18, 2013. I really wanted to have a  Blue themed cocktail party with all my friends. Hopefully we can make this work. It gives me something positive to think about. If you have any ideas please leave notes below!

FASHION:

Since we are talking about moving today I would like to talk about interior Fashion. Below is a picture of how I would love my room to look like. It is so big open. I love the soft color scheme and the large window. It's very shabby chic' mixes the new with the old. I think this is very trendy. Point being save unique gently used furniture from decades a go. I have this one amazing chair that is white and light lime green that use to be Brian's mothers and it is my favorite piece in the house. Also I have to really great mirrors that can me used in many area's of the house. I wish we actually could settle in to  a house but we currently are stuck in an apartment. No matter where you live make it beautiful and make it you. You don't need to hand everything you have. Put the rest in storage it might come back in another decade or so. I will talk about this later but same goes for accessories.

PAIN:

I ask this of you because time is running out. Please donate to  http://www.youcaring.com/medical-fundraiser/rachelle-s-battle-with-chronic-sclerosing-osteomyelitis/58786  Brian is the only one working and I am trying my hardest to get on SS but so far I have been rejected. Please let me know if you are or know someone you know who can help me get the social security I need. The reason we need all the donations is because we have to fly to Miami and stay there for 2 weeks in a hotel while I heal, pay medical/hospital expenses, pay for medication, travel, and food. This will only be the first of 2 trips to Miami. There is no better doctor in the US at removing chronic sclerosing osteomyelitis of the jaw than Dr. Marx. He will doing the same procedure on me as he does on cancer patients so, this puts me on a cancer watch list (but I am not worried). He actually discovered this disease; and he has many people following him around daily learning. We also are tight on our budget because we moved into a more sterile place so that I wont get a infection while healing. If I get an infection I will have to return to Dr. Marx immediately if complications can occur. Our last living situations had mold in  our new place (the same price) no mold and it has all wood floors not carpet. To read more about Dr. Marx please go to http://uhealthsystem.com/doctors/profile/1096

I hope you will continue on this journey with me, please leave notes to educate me more, and all the support in the many forms I get it is a apperciated. 

How It All Works

First of all, word of caution:

My blog might not be written perfectly, actually I guarantee that it will have mistakes. Sometimes my medication clouds up my thinking, therefore I might confuse you. So, please let me know of any major errors.

My intentions are to create a personal blog that have a range of feelings that you can relate to. You might feel happy, hopeful, curious, sad, educated, excited, perplexed, challenged, and maybe you'll find something that you can share with others and believe in.

I don't want my blog to be a woe is me type of journal. I am not a victim, I am a warrior and I'm fighting the war. I hope that you will join in and support me in any way you can; prayers, a phone call, a donation, a visit the lists goes on. It's pretty easy to make me smile. 

A Girl, Fashion, and Pain

 A Girl  (Section 1) Is about me, my day, people I interact with; interesting things I have learned, & how I feel mentally and spiritually.  My favorite things and  least favorite things. Well basically this section could be about anything going on in my life and you might be in it.

Fashion (Section 2)  Is going to be all fun! Fashion trends, ideas, styling tips, pictures of me or of others, some links and clips to magazines and articles. Fashions do's and don'ts (now those are going to be some hilarious pictures). I might even talk about my interactions celebrities I worked with.

Pain (Section 3) Is a chronicle of my battle with CSO. I will tell you all the things I have researched and different things that I have tried in order to help heal me including: different medications & vitamins, different healing processes. I feel like this section is really going to be important & interesting to the people in the medical field who don't know much about Chronic Sclerosing Osteomyelitis.

The End (Section 4) Questions, answers, inspirational thoughts, it's really open up to whatever the day gives us.  

Most of my blogs will have some quotes or saying  at the end. I've been making a book of quotes. I started doing this when I didn't and feel well; it still comforts me the worse off I become. Please respond at the bottom of my blogs with your favorite quotes. I will collect them and write them into my book so that I can read them wherever I go. 

 * You might not agree with everything I have done, or tried out, or what I write about but it's my journey & that is the very reason why it's interesting.